Saturday, November 25, 2006, it's 10:39 PM.
today is 25/11/06 .
Starting from yesterday, really thank zhaolun for holdin his birthday party, firstly we could see him drop his man tears. wahaha. and a chance for the 5Ns to bid farewell..into the adulthood of our life.
from sec one, in 1n1 , we came in as innocent as before. the first friend i make is guanjie. i stil rmb tellin him to call me alan cuz it is easier to rmb. frm than, he is my first friend in sec life. many told us we look alike.. skinny skinny..okay.. than sec one was probably the most free year in our life.. there was no probs such as friends prob.. bgr... everybody was equally '' blur '' . hahas.
than to sec two.. i was is 2n1. our class remains except i think audrey was promoted to express.. doing the NAs proud. the bgr realtions was complicated but i was not involved. though i was told this girl had a crush on me.. and i reject cuz i was shorter than her. like duh. well tt time i didn know how to think. hmm.. sec 2 was stil as fun... band of brothers..clarence.. zhaolun... ya.
than to sec 3. the point when teenagers go bad or stay on the correct path. luckily i wasn led astray. we spilt classes.. into 3n1 and 3n2. based on the subjects combinations. i choose F & N. which led me to new classmates-current-best-friend-for-pouring-troubles.. hahas.. he is koonxian. the N1 and N2s in sec one and two MERGE. so met new friends. awkard at first... to name a few, jiayi,haida,koonxian,junping,yingying. they were great. they knew i had a serous attitude prob....which is sensitive..towards friends and friends secrets.. they changed me...though today i am sensitive towards r/s.. haiz. r/s aside. new classmates... lost some mates to other class.. ya..than was involved in some r/s with some gals of lower sec....none very serious.. none make me cry... brkin up was really nth tt time.. yea.. puppy love u can call.. haha. to think back its kinda funny..
alright than to sec 4, one of most teachers thati loved is Mrs Gowrie Somu. she has a never say die passsion for her students.. esp for fNn.. is just some reasons tt she took long leave.. fuck N**** V**** Secondary. hahs. very sad. almost drop tears when she left.. btw.. durin sec one or two.. did cry... cuz of other reasons.. maybe very pain.. hahas.. sissy right. frm sec 3 onwards.. every crying have reasons..haiz. she left.. we work hard to prove ourselfs.. we make it. we pass N lvl. i got a A. i am very happy. now O lvls..i hoping to get least a B. i cannot disappoint her or shld say FnN students shouldnt disappoint her ! Sec 4.. was the most slackin year yet the impt yr... it is the N lvls. slackin is mostly our habit... had form brothers bonds with justin and jerry though i always quarrel wit them. it was indeed a stressful yr.. my parents had problems with me aft brk up.. b4 this...than this know new classmates again.. some are repeated students..samantha, sinwee, clement,soonhwa. know them.. though we are diff class. than thru CRT, i get to know this really sweet gal. i was all-of-a-sudden amazed .. she got tt X factor... ( somebody told me about X factor and i using it here. hmm. ) i was attracted. propose to her. and if she accpts me, she call me the nx whole day. that day when i am suppose to wait... was a sunday. i had a family trip to bukit timah hill. e feelin was nv felt b4.. though i experience a few r.s b4 tis.. this one got a Xfactor. clibin half way, she sms a ' yes ' . i drop dead..i mean .. just shocked. she accpeted. i officially attached to this cute gal, with this unique voice..( but i hate ppl who trys to mimick her. damn guys) we had fun. we had bitter ugly times. laugh, laughter, suspense,tryin to hug her tighter each time, quarrels. every couple hope to have for 8 mths. thats when everything ended. disappeared for some reasons. over in everything. my life changed when i have her..she left and i was totally upside down. trust me. my classmates knew it all.i was at the edge of death, edge of everything.. NM..Brothers jujstin jerry.. very gd fwens lun koon clar...helped me. even a counsellor.tellin me signs of depression. i nv knew it was so serious b4.. end of her. life was nv same again.. it suck. meaningless. waited. now, HAD to give up thouh i stil cant bear... her heart has left me months ago i guess.. mayb just wks aft brk up to.... ya. nw i am tryin FUCKIN hard to give up. because i cause some thing. not to be mention... i had to oblige.
sec5s, our O lvls.. survivors of N lvls. wahahha! class size reduced to 20 +. pathetic. but fun. and effective. our tcher ms chen. co formm mrs edison. we had real mature jokes and fun. we are treated like adults.. can feel it. very happy. ms chen knew about my plight. ( r/s ) and took pity and help me. mr malvin lim too.. thanks. the ''mourning'' started from brk up til nw. along e way i have another gal. i hurt her and i am very sorry. i didn meant to seriously. sorry ****i .
soon O lvls around e corner.. as iwas stil haunted by the mourn, i feel like commiting suicied seriuously and i didn wan to tk Os.. feel like immigration to as far as poss. see ehr daily was like hell. at the last min.. bout one wk left.. i start to read up and revise. now exams are over... i free.. everyday free to think of .. and nw heard very shock stuff.. i kjnew i had to occupy myselfs. found a job.. gonna start on nx tues.. its real far.. at holland road. well. aft gettin pay i gonna buy psp.... well..
all in all.. to summarise my school life ( which i think all of u shld do it some day when u are free...) , it was smooth thru out.. pass all academic stages smoothly. probs only in family and the regret was her. end of story.
once again, thjanks to lllun for the party. though.. ya.. i had fun ya. than its gona b months b4 we see each other again.. to get results. all the best to all ! God bless ! i really cant bear to leave all of u.. though there are many disagreemtns and quarrels between friends. but tts when are are hot on our head.. and when things get calmer.. everything settles.. we offer handshake and friendship gets stronger. to those friends i offended, i am sorry. hope we remain friends thru out... helpin each other. my hp no is 81636585. for any apparent reason i chng, i die die wld sms all in my ohonebook. sorry if i offended u once or many because of some reasons.. i do no wan to make enemies , but true friends. to my loyal friends.. i ll still serve u loyally. ll be there whenever u nid me.. just gimme a call. ( if u trust me..)
To all friends, God doesnt give us each other for no reasons, thus we should help people without expceting returns.
now that we are separated, hope true friends stay in contact forever.
to the gal i once hurted her and loved so deeply, thank you for giving me the experience and also sorry for the hurt i caused.
With love,
Liangzhi.
