Monday, March 10, 2008, it's 10:31 PM.
Rejected.
ya. told u guys bout learning italian as my 3rd language right ? i not learning anymore, gonna return the b00ks to NLB soon. bought 8 days mag, nv bought for myself before.
because, i just lose my one thing, one person that have been motivating me all along, keeping me awake til wee hrs for chatting, waking early in the morning to go to work, making me look forward to tmr and the future, giving me hopes to driver her around when i get my license.
yes, its gone. and after wednesday, she would be even further away from me. so near, yet so far. to all my sec friends, i tellin u ppl its a feeling as bad as when i waited for samantha. it is real bad. i can be calm along, even in breaking up of relationships, but this time, it really got me crazy. felt like leaving spore, to a faraway land or even out of earth, just don wanna live on anymore. its tt bad yes. everytime i reach home, i stare at the laptop, walls, go to work and face my ridiculous mum. AND stay til wee hrs because my mind is full of her. thinkin of her going away with him makes me even worst, i cannt put on a brave face anymore, i cant. how could this happen to me ? i realise whenever i gets serious in relationships, i failed miserably. this time, its worst, being told that i am actually one sided all along! phow. hit it hard like titanic hits the iceberg.
i dunno how am i going to carry on living for i do not even have any motivation or inspiration, not tt lz u see b4... man. lifes hard. i want to give and can give it to her, but she jsut din want to take it.
o.u.c.h
